be still and know that i'm with you

for the first time in i dont know how long, i'm done with my homework and ready for bed tonight by 9pm...that is crazy. although i still have a few projects to do they aren't due until next week so for now i'm going to enjoy this time of being done with my day early. i hate how busy i am sometimes. it's not that i'm doing crazy stuff but between school, babysitting, homework, young life, and wyld life events i dont have a lot of free time. i think it's so easy to get caught up in our daily activites when we have a lot going on. we become distracted-missing out on opportunities and focusing on the things coming up next instead of being in the present. dont get me wrong, i like having things planned out but i've really been learning that if i'm so focused on whats going to happen next i miss out on things that are happening now. instead of focusing so much on upcoming events what if i just trust the Lord and be present. be intentional with where i am in the moment. i used to be a strict type A person-aka i had to have everything planned, know where i'm going, when i'm going, if things didn't go that way i'd get upset, etc but i think that in the past year or so (mostly thanks to emily :) ) i have gotten way more "go with the flow", allowing things to work out for themselves instead of worrying with what lies ahead, being present and trusting the Lord with the rest. i still like having a general idea of what my week looks like though. haha i also used to think that i needed to be doing something in order for my day to be productive/beneficial but i think it's good to have time where we're simply doing nothing. i love that actually. to get away from our busy lives for just a little while each day. sometimes i come home from school and just lay on my bed-for a solid 20/30 mins-not being on the computer or sleeping but just relaxing. taking time to rest. it's the best. so for tonight i'm going to take this time to rest, to read, to relax, to enjoy not staying up late with loads of homework.

i want to be awake and aware of what's going on around me in the moment. i want to be intentional. i dont want to just go with the motions. i want to be present.  i want to be able to find Christ in all situations. i want to live life in full.